August 14, 2002

Please find it in your heart
to listen if you will.
I don’t need explanations
of how to go about it
or where I should be by now.
I need to tell my story
simply
and despite the painful sadness.

Sit with me.
I cannot give you how
or where I am.
Cannot fit myself
into models experts crafted
hoping to help me heal.
It doesn’t help to have you say
I should be doing it differently.
My one and only clear goal now
is to sit here quietly,
needing only to be
who I am,
and where I am,
the rest remains a riddle.

Copyright © 2001-2003 Kristen Spexarth